A letter to my Little Boy…no, my Little Man

How can it be that you are turning 7 today?   Seriously… I cannot even remember what is was like without you in my life in some form or fashion.

I remember how sick you made me when you were still in my tummy…EVERY DAY.  You were worth every minute of it.

I remember how tired I was near the end of my pregnancy. in JULY… moving from the old clinic to the new in a day… and still you were worth it.

I   remember all  the horrible things that happen to your body AFTER you have a baby that NO ONE tells you about… and still you  were worth it.

I remember you at just a few days old- I was having a breakdown on the front porch after everyone had gone home from visiting… after I had snuck you  a bottle of formula because you were SO hungry and I couldn’t be the mom I thought I had to be… I remember thinking that I had just ruined you for life.   Caused the death and destruction of your immune system in one fell shake of the formula can… and yet even after all that panic and tears.. you were still worth it – and you survived 😉

I remember the tears I shed when I had to leave you at day care for the first time… again… thinking I was failing you as a mom….

I remember being at your second birthday and thinking how sad it was that the plan was for you to grow up all alone.. and deciding to give you a sibling.    How much more work two are than one, but how much greater the rewards of seeing you together.   Yes.. you are definitely worth it.

You are worth the dirt on my floor, the bugs in my house and the food in my car…

And the struggles of teaching you to read… with you resisting us very step of the way…

You are worth the worries that we are doing a good job as parents to try to train you to be a responsible, caring young man who loves the Lord and shows kindness to those around him.

 

 

 

 

You are worth the heartbreak that I know is coming when one day you no longer want a hug when you first wake up in the morning…

You are worth the gray hairs… that I KNOW I am getting.

I hope you know how much I love you and how proud I am to be your mom…

 

 

Happy 7th Birthday, Cameron Potter!